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hayyyy [25 Jan 2008|02:45pm]
[ mood | bored ]

hey it's melissa...gosh it's been so longn since i have been on here.  if anyone reads this or cares i'll give a quick update of my life.  ok, my mom had back surgery in the summer of '05, my aunt (mom's sister) died in december '05 which was really hard on the family, i had a job since july '06 but got fired in the beginning of this month and am on unemployment, uhh...i'm not a virgin anymore, i lost it a couple of years ago and am still in love with the man that deflowered me but i don't think he loves me back.  we haven't seen each other since like september or october, but all i want is to be w/ him and have his baby and marry him. sigh.  also my mom broke up with her longtime bf alan like a year ago.  or rather i guess he just stopped calling her.  hm sounds familiar (same with my ex).  other than that...just i'm depressed over things and s-i.

i have a new account if you want to visit me or be friends there...i can't get that stupid link to work...ok my new account's name is just gnrldisarray!  lol


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from mon gj [13 Nov 2005|04:17pm]
i really just need somewhere to vent. this really has nothging to do with anything but i am soooo f-ing mad my teams lost!!!! ok, let me start at the beginning: my friend tori calls me over yesterday to hang out, and i came over. there was the oregon state beaver's playing that day (BIG GAME), and her parents, younger sister, and 1 of her younger brother's were going, leaving tori and me and her youngest brother at her house to watch the game on tv. the game didn't start until 3 so we went to go get a pizza for her brother, with tori driving her mom's car, without her permission, right? so we went and came back, but tori said we needed to go get these people from a nearby town. we go, get them, and come back. by now it is 3 and the game is on. tori hangs out with these people, which she doesn't even like, while i stay with her brother, who's around 12. then they say that they are going to fred meyer, and they will be right back. well they are gone for about 2 hours, during which both the trail blazers (our nba team) and the beaver's both lose. FUCK i was SOOO pissed; i was left alone to babysit her psychotic little brother and watch my fucking teams lose, while she is off hanging out with these other people?
and let me show you how we lost:

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caption: Oregon State's Alexis Serna (13) is helped up by Colt Charles (7) after missing a potential game-tying field goal while Stanford players celebrate in the background during the final seconds of the game Saturday, Nov. 12, 2005, in Corvallis, Ore. Stanford won 20-17. (AP Photo/Ryan Gardner)

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post [14 May 2005|07:59pm]
[ mood | hot ]

i know i never write anymore, but i am not even on the internet much (not that i have anything else to do during the day) and don't have anything to say anyway. things are really boring now. plus i have an account on greatestjournal which i write in more frequently. coming on here seems like a hassle. and who wants to read about my boring life? i am passing sociology 206, flunking science, and probably flunking poetry. this summer i want to come back to corvallis to get employment (which was why i moved to vernonia in the first place, lol) so i should have a life then. i never write so ya know if you want to take me off your friends list that's fine. but i'm not going to bother taking your name off, so you will look really popular and all that, lol.
oh, and i saw "wimbledone", with kirsten dunst and paul bettany and it's actually pretty good. it's very similar to the story of pete sampras' retirement. pretty good. i recently saw "ring 2", which was alright, and "jacob's ladder" which was AMAZING. if you haven't seen it i totally recommend it. it's in my top 20 of all time. i also saw "the changeling" with george c. scott, and it was also really good. it is probably one of the greatest ghost story movies ever. (my brother's on a horror movie kick, lol)
well talk to you later, bye!

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[15 Apr 2005|02:16pm]
[ mood | angry ]

SALEM, Oregon (AP) -- The Oregon Supreme Court on Thursday nullified nearly 3,000 marriage licenses issued to same-sex couples by Multnomah County a year ago, saying a single county couldn't take such action on its own.

The court said while the county can question the constitutionality of laws governing marriage, they are a matter of statewide concern so the county had no authority to issue licenses to gay couples.

The court noted that last November, Oregonians approved a constitutional amendment that limits marriages to a man and a woman. The court also said that long before that vote, state law had set the same limitations on marriages since Oregon became a state.

"Today, marriage in Oregon -- an institution once limited to opposite-sex couples only by statute -- now is so limited by the state Constitution as well," the court ruling said.

The court left the door open for state legislators to craft an alternative to gay marriages, such as civil unions.

"We conclude that Oregon law currently places the regulation of marriage exclusively within the province of the state's legislative power," the court said.

Tim Nashif, head of the Oregon Family Council and the Defense of Marriage Coalition, said, "We're pretty thrilled and pretty relieved at the opinion."

Members of the Legislature have been awaiting the ruling to give them guidance on how to proceed on the issue, and just Wednesday, Gov. Ted Kulongoski said he will push for a law allowing gay couples to form civil unions.

Marte Sheehan, who married Linda Duchek last March, said she was disappointed with the ruling but had hopes the Legislature would pass a bill allowing civil unions.

"I believe that ultimately the Legislature will do the right thing," she said.

Multnomah County, which includes much of Portland and is the state's most populous county, began issuing marriages to gay couples last April, arguing that not doing so violated the state Constitution. A judge ordered the practice to cease about six weeks later, but not before nearly 3,000 same-sex couples had wed.

Vermont is the first and still the only state to offer civil unions to gays, passing a law in 2000. Massachusetts has allowed gay marriage since last May. Both those changes came about after court rulings. In Connecticut, the state House passed legislation Wednesday that would make it the second state to establish same-sex civil unions

Multnomah County's move last year was one of a flurry of similar ones after San Francisco started issuing same-sex marriage licenses on February 12, 2004. San Francisco's spree of gay weddings also was shut down by the courts, though a related constitutional challenge brought by gay rights activists is still pending.

"Two West Coast liberal states now, both California and Oregon, have both said that local governments don't have authority to take the law into their own hands," said Kelly Clark, the attorney for the Defense of Marriage Coalition. "It certainly sends a signal to the rest of the country."

i am so upset! our laws did not say that marriage equals a man and a woman, it said nothing at all about it, someone just presumed it. and i thought we were supposed to be blue. not really, but more half and half with a democratic leaning. now we follow the frickin bible belt? i just really hope that when the supreme court holds the hearings they are doing about gay marriage they rule in favor of it and legalize it. they won't, but i hope they do. the u.s. is really acting like a bunch of ignorants here. suddenly i don't really like this state. or this country. bigotry rulz.

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[10 Apr 2005|04:59pm]
[ mood | tired ]

i feel bad that i never write but i'm really not on the internet that much. for one thing i accidentally broke the main phone hookup at my mom's house, and it won't work period. well her house i falling apart anyways.
i have been talking to joleen on the internet, and i saw tori yesterday. we met (she was with some girl who tori apparently hates because the girl slept with her boyfriend) at the 76 gas station and went to richie's market. we went in to get some food and tori was like, "oh let's get this, and this and this"...and i asked her how much money she had, and she said "none." "none? none at all?" she starts laughing and said no, so she got these hot deli items like jojos and some big candy bars and walked out and i thought we were going to get caught and i would get in trouble. that's just what i need, a record. she actually was pretty calm and normal though. completely unlike when i saw her on my birthday when she and her friends smoked meth in front of me and were rude.
and the mariners and the yankees both lost today! argh i am pissed about that.

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quit [02 Apr 2005|02:03am]
[ mood | jealous ]

well i talked to my boss, and she was understanding, but in a sort of patronizing way. i am relieved to be out of that. i told her i wanted to come back and probably would, and i might if i get my grades up. on the second day of my office systems class i skipped, which really isn't improving on last term. i really need to pass my classes...like really, really.
and i don't know if i ever even talked about this here (i have more than 1 journal and post in there and in other communites) but i never met up with joleen. she was supposed to stop by this weekend at my dad's house in corvallis (she moved to portland this past summer) but she came by like 10 minutes after i had left to drive to my mom's house. i was sad to have missed her, but she never even calls, rarely emails, and just gives me her address and tells me to find her! she doesn't know how i can get to her apartment from the highway i live off of or anything even! it's not like i have so much extra money for gas or anything. plus my dad said she has lost probably 30 pounds and looks great, and i don't. i sound shallow but i hate feeling like crap around my friends and feel like they have to look down on me. i also feel like i haven't accomplished anything since high school graduation in 2002. i just want to get done with school and get started with my life!

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yay [27 Mar 2005|02:24am]
[ mood | confused ]

i never wrote about this here but i am very nervous for tuesday, because i emailed my boss and told her i wanted to quit. i made up some bs excuse about focusing on school when in reality i'm just too lazy to come in on time. i don't want to have to face her or face up to this and i can feel a sour stomach coming on from worrying! hooray.

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[25 Mar 2005|11:51pm]
[ mood | curious ]

sooo...i have been looking up used cars on autotrader.com, and it makes me realize even more how much i hate my car. i mean really. if it were to suddenly blow up, as long as no one was hurt i would say good riddance. it is ugly and it has so many problems. for instance: the ac is broken, one of the headlights breaks every month or so because it is near impossible to get in all the way and when i drive it bumps against something and breaks, the gas door is broken and i have to pry it open, the driver's side wiper is broken, the engine sounds like a lawnmower, um, it's just really mutherf-ing ugly. i know these things can be fixed...but i hate my car. i just hate it don't make me make up a reason. :p
so does anyone know how i could possibly sabotage it? i know i sound insane but i hate my car and want it to die. both parents have said i couldn't get a different car unless this one dies and i don't want it anymore so i need it to die! i have read to pour iodine in the gas tank because it will make the engine dirty and the cylanders will cease to funtion...does anyone know anything else? this sounds really crazy but i am curious. just die already! i haven't put oil in it in a while, but it's still running.
fyi it's a 1989 plymouth acclaim and my grandma gave it to me because she didn't want it anymore...

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[20 Mar 2005|08:08pm]
[ mood | annoyed ]

what is wrong with livejournal? it is having so many problems lately. sometimes i will try to post a comment and i will have to refresh a bunch of times to have it post, and sometimes when i search for certain interests or usernames i will get the "this page cannot be displayed" message. the same thing happens when i try to log in. it took 10 tries before i finally got logged on this time! argh it's so frustrating.

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[14 Mar 2005|10:54pm]
[ mood | i reeeaaaallly need to pee ]

sort of redoing my bio on my user info page, and decided to take this off. don't want to get rid of it permanently, so i'll post it. oooh, aaah!

You are 67% Aquarius

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..................... [10 Mar 2005|07:32pm]
[ mood | duh ]

i feel bad that i never update, but i never have anything to say. i skipped work this week, but i'll just tell my boss i took my spring break early. also i am flunking my frech class. i am all signed up for classes next term but i am not looking forward to it at all. life seems to be moving so slowly, but at the same time it seems to be flying by. i wish i could grab time with my hand and slow it down or speed it up. i wish i had a boyfriend too. :/

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[08 Mar 2005|12:13am]
[ mood | bitchy ]

hey i finally saw the oscars! it was GREAT. i don't care what anyone says, chris rock was great (not quite steve martin or billy crystal, but great nonetheless) and i was actually pretty happy with everyone who won. <333 hilary swank! she is so talented and gorgeous.
and i made a bunch of christina icons if any of you want to take any. if ya do credit me! thanks!
the icons

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goodbye norma jean... [04 Mar 2005|01:15am]
[ mood | tired ]

i really want to see "the jacket"! it looks really scary, sort of like "jacob's ladder". also i have a huge crush on adrien brody. damn, now i'm excited. check it out:
also i am finally going to watch the oscar tomorrow! i already know hilary, jamie, and cate one, but not best supporting actor. i don't know best pic but i think it is mdb. i also don't know best director but i think it might be clint eastwood. hurray if yes for both! :)
also i am finally back in touch with joleen. we have emailed and text messaged and she keeps telling me to visit her at her apartment, but i don't know my way around portland at all. i have a phobia of big cities. i am always scared of getting lost in them.
tori also called me, but my cell was off so she left a message. she said it was important, and i really am wondering what is wrong. she was sort of mumbling and my phone kept cutting out, so i wasn't able to hear the #. my dad ended up going over to her parent's house and getting her newest number from her brothers. how embarassing. i feel really bad for tori. i am also really worried about her. i wish she would go into rehab, for drugs but also for domestic abuse. i don't want to see her ruin her life. :(

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million dollar baby all the way! [27 Feb 2005|10:57am]
[ mood | rushed ]

i can't believe it's the oscars already! wow i'm so excited, but really nervous. actually i probably won't be able to see them this year cause i have to be at my grandma's to eat dinner because she is having some relative from the netherlands (where dutch people come from, i can't remember the country. denmark?) and we eat at 5, and the oscars start at 6. i really want to see them. maybe i'll record it and watch it later.
anyways, go million dollar baby, clint eastwood, jamie foxx, hilary swank, and either morgan freeman or thomas hayden church.
and ehn i'm trying to find nicole richie pics, and i'll make more icons/bases later. and fyi the ones i made before are probably too big cause the program i am using was crapping out, so sorry about that!
gotta go shower, bye.

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[20 Feb 2005|08:25pm]
i just started making icons and for some reason i am so proud of this fact. i even submitted a bunch of icons to an icon community! i was looking up celebs i like on lj and found a mischa barton icon group and thought "hey i can do some" and so i did. here they are, plus some others for anyone to have. they are mainly of actress mischa barton, but there are others! if anyone wants an icon/base made than please just ask me! and please comment and credit if taking, and i will love you forever ;D
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guess who's back [20 Feb 2005|12:50am]
[ mood | fine ]

hey joleen finally called me! it was so neat to hear from her. apparently not much has changed since she moved. she is still working a dead end job in some cna-type position. she is still poor. yea just like me. except i don't have a job. >:( her birthday sucked just like mine did. unlike me she has a life though. man i'm such a loser.
also i really hate my car and am waiting for it to just die so i can buy some used one. i am not expecting my '89 plymouth to make it through this summer. it feels like it's on it's last legs as it is, so, yea. can't say i will miss it or anything.
and here's this. i always do these things but hardly ever post them, but this one just cracked me up:
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[16 Feb 2005|01:26am]
[ mood | melancholy ]

well i skipped french class yesterday and slept through work today. i want to be successful but i am too lazy to do things i need to do! i also am only taking 8 credits now, and thus was dropped from my mom's insurance. i really need to pass my 2 classes or i am going to be kicked out of her house. not that i care, i hate living here. no tv, no shower, not much heat, no washer/dryer. i really love visiting my dad's so i can be on the internet a lot and watch tv, i can shower and wash my clothes. i wouldn't mind being kicked out actually. except i would prolly see tori and her drugged out friends. i actually saw her on my birthday! it was bizarre. i was on the computer and eating dinner and suddenly she was standing there, with a huge black/bloody eye. her boyfriend had beaten her up, but she won't press charges. she is still on meth, and when i went to hang out with her she and her friends smoked it in front of me. i also smoked too many cigarettes and ended up having to go outside and throw up in a rain puddle while tori programmed her phone number in my cell. i want to hang out with her more, because i love her so much and she is my best friend, but i can't deal with her on drugs. she is living with her addict friends and i don't ever want to see them again. i wish tori would get help. her parents are trying to get her into rehab but she doesn't want to go. how am i supposed to help her? i really hate drugs. they just ruin people's lives.

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[11 Feb 2005|09:35pm]
[ mood | amused ]

i like this pic i just had to save it.
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[10 Feb 2005|04:32pm]
[ mood | content ]

oy i'm getting bored of my layout again. i'm gonna go change it...again.
also, i'm trying to pimp this board, so go join. it's about celebs and their plastic surgery.
we're having some drama right now, but it's usually really fun! my screen name there is thatkrap fyi.

we have moved! our new name is savingface and the link is
join us! ;)

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21 bells...will chime......! [27 Jan 2005|03:25pm]
[ mood | gloomy ]

ok, it is my birthday. i will be 21 at 3:30 pm pacific time.
also, happy birthday to brigitte fonda, james cromwell, my high school speech/acting teacher, nancy who works at greenbaums’s and everyone else. also it’s the 60th anniversary of the liberation of auschvitz, and an apollo aircraft caught fire this day in 1967.
yea. to bad i don't have any friends anymore to go get drunk with. joleen lives in portland now, but she never calls! :(
and i'm at work, and have a chest cold, and all but 3 of my icons were immediately deleted without my choosing which ones to delete, so blahh

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